Being in love is such a beautiful and complicated thing I have ever experienced. Even with all the heartbreak and fights, I wouldn’t trade it for the world with anyone else. I only want Cody.
I just feel like the people who are most important to are getting tired of me and just want to leave me life… my mom, my boyfriend, the two people I love the most in the entire world are getting bored and just need a way out and I don’t think I’m able to handle that I mean I guess I’m just overreacting but I’m so sad the thought of that shit just eats me alive and I can’t
But that is my problem, I care too much and it comes around to haunt me everyday of this living hell
The thought of losing anyone that I truly and dearly love just kills me and idk what to do with my life where do I go next am I gonna work a minimum paying job all my life am I gonna go furiously angry everytime I get into a stupid meaningless fight will I take my own life what the fuck am I gonna do I can’t take this I’m sorry ugh
You know what I hate? I hate when some people can’t fucking understand social anxiety. They’re just like you shouldn’t care what people think about you etc. but like what the fuck? What makes you think you know what’s going on in my fucking mind that you can possibly understand? IM SORRY IM NOT FUCKING PERFECT WHAT THE FUCK…. Esp when people are close to you and they still understand like are you that completely oblivious to who I am after like a year of being around me consistently. I’m so upset I could jump off a bridge right now
following back everyone until i find a tumblr gf♡